i have this line, beneath my name on my xanga frontpage that says "god keep me humble". it reminds me of this idea that i haven't told many people, but think is worth mentioning. i really think that we can take god out most things. i don't see what a personal relationship with god is really doing for us, or how christianity is about being with god all the time. i think jesus wanted us to be talking to and loving people. i think the bible is about making the world, full of people, a better place. i think it's about the hearts... of people.

now, when i went to church and called myself a christian, i prayed a lot, and worshipped a lot, and sought god, the heart of all things, the good in things, the "saving grace". i'm really thankful that i did. i feel like it really helped me be honest with myself, and with right and wrong, and just gave me time to think, to be introspective. not that i didn't manage to lie to myself about feelings, and generally fuck a lot of things up, but it helped me still, and i dont regret that path too much.

usually... people keep me humble. i'm not gonna lie, i usually only listened to this one person in particular, and listened to my own logic the rest of the time, but i tried to be humble and not a jerk. not that i accomplished that, by any means... so, whatever, i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty pissed off that i turned out that way. i know it was a direct result of the people that brought me up.

people. it's about people. it's about loving people. it's about saving, and being saved by, people.

or whatever. i'm writing music, because it's something i'm good at, and not everyone is. i'm just trying not to go insane.

wow, i cannot believe it. I've been tagged by Dave. how random, but it makes me feel pretty special. so here it is:

 - I should be doing a two-page paper due tomorrow that i haven't started on.
 - I am currently the host of a radio show that my parents have really put the pressure on me to quit.
 - I love Gatorade and have played only one year of baseball, despite being a fairly talented athlete.
 - I played Guitar Hero 2 for the first time tonight, and I rocked out.
 - I usually have no disregard for caps, but since a member of the xanga team has tagged me, I want to make him proud.
 - I don't know how many of these I'm supposed to write.
 - I haven't blogged in a long time, and even more so on Xanga. Xanga is my first blogging love though, and i will someday read all of my posts, and put them in a book, or something.

can I tag Dave back? anyway, i didn't, but my heart goes out to him. For those that I tagged, if i can play, you can play!

Study without desire spoils the memory, and it retains nothing that it takes in.

Leonardo da Vinci (1452 - 1519)

Mr. Dreiling, our english teacher, always asks for quotes we can use for discussion. im def gonna give him this.